Oh. My. Lord.
My life seems to have made a hard left-hand turn. And let me just say this before I go on...this turn of events is an answer to many, many prayers (spoken and unspoken).
I'm going back to work, people! I haven't worked outside the home since I was pregnant with Sydney. We're talking over seven years of being a stay-at-home mom. Seven of the most rewarding years of my life, I might add. My little man, Jackson, starts preschool next week, and Brooklyn enters kindergarten. And God opened the door for me to work at their school.
For several years I've put feelers out for a job...a means to help our family financially. For several years every door I've knocked on has either closed or no one has even answered. Until this year. I didn't even touch the door, and the next thing I knew...I was offered a job...more than I expected. If you were to pinch me, I'd swear I must be dreaming. But I'm not.
Things are about to get interesting. I am actually writing this post from the center of household chaos while dealing with multiple interruptions from three bored little ones. (I'm going to try and make it a short one.)
As I've been getting ready for the start up of school, preparing myself to go back to work and finishing up end of summer activities, my "to do" list continues to grow and grow and grow. The perfectionist in me is stressing because of the driven nature to make sure everything is...well...perfect. And I'm trying to keep all the balls in the air - this blog included - and I'm starting to worry that something is going to fall short of my high expectations, and I'm realizing that there is a deep cry within me for one thing.
Balance.
In order to attain balance, I am going to have to restructure. The first thing I am placing on the back burner is this blog. I am not quitting...oh heavens no. However, I will be cutting back on the number of posts produced. If I have nothing to write, then I'm not going to write. If I have no time to write, then I'm not going to write. I am going to focus on quality...not quantity. As of yet, I'm not sure what this is going to look like, or if I will eventually come up with a schedule of sorts. However, the blog will have to get used to its new place in the priorities of my life.
My home is all a'bustle with excitement. Rather than look at Brooklyn starting kindergarten as something to mourn, or the fact that my little guy is going to be in preschool, I have begun to celebrate this brand new season in our lives. I'll be honest with you, change is not an easy thing for me. But what I've learned in my very short life is that change can be my friend. I am taking my kids on a journey to embrace change, and it all begins with me. My attitude. My countenance. While I appreciate and cherish the past seven years as a gift from God, I can look ahead and know with confidence that this next season is also a gift from God. And I'm ready to see what new things God has for us.
It's going to get interesting. And I can. not. wait.
Isaiah 43:18
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.